I looked at myself, and I began to realize that I have a long road ahead of me. I have to apologize in advance for all the relationships I am going to intentionally stop because I have nothing to give. I'm sorry but I can't get as close to you as I thought I could. … Continue reading I’m sorry
“Brittany, remember the color blue,” three nurses surrounded me as the strobe lights immediately stopped flashing, all lights in my room came on, and I felt my body tense up, as if I had turned into a snake. “Brittany what is today’s date?” - slowly, I spat out, September 13. “Do you know the year?” … Continue reading eyes in the mirror – 2
Its been so long since I've been here, feeling full of fear and here I am. Planning a trip to Dallas, scheduling MRI's, finding hotels, and doing it all alone, right on Christmas week. UT Southwestern has been a journey of ups and downs for me. From being the hospital with the news that … Continue reading In the nick of time
I look up the sky and I still can't figure out why I have not come to a breaking point yet. With all the tough feats I feel I have faced, I asked God, what else was next. Every single day, I reflect on my decisions I've made and consequences that I've dealt with. I … Continue reading The Door Frame
The room was quiet. When a nurse leaves you with 30 minutes to stare at a calm sea-foam painted wall, alone, with nothing but your thoughts.. you get to thinking about everything that's been going on and everything that might progress in your future. The phrase ''scrape you from the pavement'' kept blaring through my mind while I … Continue reading The enemy has arrived.
It was Easter Sunday, and the line to get inside the St Mary's Catholic Church in downtown Austin Texas was wrapped around the block, even in the rain.. but I needed to get inside that church and hear the word of God, so I slipped in behind a group of a couple of other college … Continue reading Blessings in Disguise
This entry is dedicated to all of my readers, both old, and new. You know, when I first started writing my blog, this blog is where I have come in the past to reflect on what I go through in my life with my stroke related illness. It's where I came to … Continue reading For You.
"Last night around 9pm what exactly was going on in your room?" - nurse "I'm not sure exactly what you mean?" - me "We're you feeling ok during this time?" - nurse "I felt fine all evening" - me ".....You showed to have had 3 seizures last night." - Doctor You gotta learn to … Continue reading Coldhearted.
"Alright Brittany hold on tight, here we go." We rushed down the ER hallways of the hospital with the nurse shouting "LEVEL 1 STROKE" and immediately my head began to spin. Here we were, January 23rd, 2015, not even 3 days after my anniversary of my stroke last year, back in the hospital, and all … Continue reading God, help her.
"I've been thinking about maybe planning a dinner, with friends or something.. " I said calmly to Ricardo about a month ago. "A dinner for what?" He replied. "You, know, .. something to get my mind off on my stroke anniversary..." I tossed and turned all night. When they say history repeats itself, they're telling the … Continue reading 365 days.